Autobiographical

 

Caution: the odd poem may contain swear words.

  CONTENTS: Ecstasy? / My fixed assets / Quicksilver quacks / All work, no pay / The girl on the glacier / Boys’ bits n pieces / Red luft balloons / Fred / Skylie-Mylie / Secrets / Chokos / Brockas / The shirt shirk / Real life after death / Sandy / Covid dreamin’ / TBHS Exceptionals / Deserted, ’til next time… / Ugly as a hatful / Charlie / Nitmuluk sailing club / Pizza delivery / No fitting room / What’s in a name? / Surprised at Surprise Creek / Clear n present danger / The intervention / Cave critters / Disdain! / Respect / The last old cutter / Major look, ya silly chook / History interrupted, gone / Hindsight / Can ya believe it? / Old Laurie / What odds? / Little Vee / Unfinished business: living rent free / Fixed or foxed? / Good bombs? Too right… / Heads up / Styza / Nude fishin’ / Professor Longhair / School reunions / The leaf / A rum deal / The game / Treated by a mushroom / Sewing’s for so and so’s / Ode to the old broad / The final cut

 

 

                              Ecstasy?

Saw two grasshoppers doing the deed

Camouflaged, dead palm frond, taking no heed

No fear, oblivious, as I picked them up, unshy

But nervous retreat, from that big camera ‘eye’

Suddenly her hindlegs splayed, frozen, no spasms

Made me wonder: do insects have orgasms?

 

 

                 My fixed assets

Judge me not by what I keep

Like bits of metal, all in a heap

Flat, folded, curved or pipe

Awaiting the job for which each is ripe.

 

Stripped my car for a new paint spray

Door glass carrier rusted clean away

Two month wait, new one from Japan

Can’t finish the job said the paint shop man.

 

So checked my ‘assets,’ piece of stainless channel

Multi-cut, radius bent, rewelded the panel

Fitted glass and took it to the paint shop

Declared perfect fit, no wobble or slop.

 

When it comes to timber, the same complaint

Stacked here and there, pretty it ain’t

Until the day it’s carved and shaped

Furniture or artwork on floor or wall draped.

 

Make it, fix it, improve a design

A genetic need or flaw of mine?

Waste versus recycled opportunity

From cheap and shoddy DIY gives immunity.

 

One man’s junk, another one’s treasure

Seeing and transforming, source of pleasure

Working out how, getting ‘junk’s’ measure

Hobby, obsession or constructive leisure?

 

 

  Quicksilver quacks

I wonder, yes I wonder

now at what I saw

In my mid-childhood,

watching the kids next door

 

Cupped handfuls of Mercury, wonder where they got it?

 

Fed it to their ducks,

then laughed in exult

Ran straight out their bums,

they caught the result

 

Cupped hands filled again, same game repeated

 

The ducks would be butchered,

then cooked and eaten

Wondering if their maker,

they’re now all a-greetin’.

 

 

               All work, no pay

It’s bin day again! So soon, so fast

When you get old, time doesn’t last

Bloody inflation’s digestive enzyme

World spinning faster, eating away time.

 

Less time to do things, so many chores

Re-roof the house, meaning less snores

“Isn’t it time…” you old sew n sew

Re-upholster both lounges, lawn to mow.

 

Fix the camp trailer, a trip up the Cape

Family re-union, re-play the old tape

Big city wedding, visit the grandkids

Off to the beach house, check time n tide bids.

 

Ripped off retirement, lost annual leave

Gone Friday’s glee, the weekend’s reprieve

No special spirit, public holidays gone

Bin day’s reminder, sense of time’s gong…

 

 

                  The girl on the glacier

The track to the glacier was rocky and long

Ice age retreated, melt-waters’ tumbling song

Then suddenly a fence, and a warning sign

“No entry unless…” crampons, conditions times nine!

 

So I jumped the gate, continued on to the ice

Broke a piece, chewed it, millennial, tasted nice!

Soon came across a young woman and a bloke

Ice picks and adze, cutting ice steps for tour folk.

 

Challenged me: “No guide, crampons…” assured them, my goal

Steps melting, asked, “How often d’you do this patrol?”

She,“Every two days.”

Me, “Shame, soon gone with climate change heat.”

She, “Oh, I don’t believe in that climate change bleat.”

 

“How long you been doing this job?”

“About two years when…”

“How high up the cliff face was the ice back then?”

Pointed out a boulder, ten metres up: “Up there…”

Sudden look, brain joined dots, aware, left her to stare…

 

Postscript (10yrs later):

Told this yarn to nice young Teacher from NZ

“Hike there now, no glacier to even see,” she said

“The small scrap left only accessed by helicopter.”

Sadly my prediction to the anti-change adopter…

 

 

                                  Boys’ bits n pieces

Rebuilding an engine, old Landrover, for an old mate

Laying in pieces, a long forlorn dusty, rusty wait

Re-bored block, ground crank, new pistons over-size

Shaved head, ground valves and valve seats: wise.

 

So fitted the crankshaft, new bearings, tensioned caps

Rear main seal, with sealant for potential leaky gaps

Gudgeons joined pistons to con rods, then ready

To insert ringed pistons, new big-end bearings, steady.

 

Rotated the crank and pistons to check if all good

Too tight! Too much friction, not as free as it should

So strip it down to locate the hidden problem

Wrong rear main bearing supplied, “Sod them!”

 

So ground off the bearing edge for journal clearance

Re-assembled, all good, so camshaft-sprocket coherence

Then guides and push-rods before the engine head

Head bolts tensioned, in order, for new gasket to bed.

 

Timing chain and tensioner, synchronised positions:

Crank, camshaft drive, and lobes, valves pre-ignitions

Then distributor and oil pump, covered by the sump

Intake and exhaust manifolds and the fuel pump.

 

Front pulley, water pump, timing cover and fan

At other end, flywheel, clutch in bellhousing flan

Alternator, carbie, rocker cover and dipstick

Then mate it to gearbox, alignment’s tricky trick.

 

All these parts! Designer smarts, steels and other alloys

Cast, machined to exact tolerances all in counterpoise

End result: eighty percent of fuel to heat, light and noise

And servicing costs, worn parts and polluting boys’ toys.

 

So bring on electric vehicles, so simple by comparison

No gearbox, clutch or cooling system plus much more to shun

No noise, no fossil Carbon, but heaps of torque and grunt

Fuel cells with Hydrogen, give expensive servicing the punt!

 

Epilogue:

24volts, disconnect ignition, remove plugs, to crank it over

All good, replace plugs, so started the tight motor

Timing light on timing marks to tune the ignition

Whoosh/gush of coolant, new Welch plug blew its position!!

 

 

                                 Red luft balloons

At Steep Point, WA, most westerly place of mainland Oz

Superfecta to complete, Cape York, Wilson’s Promontory

Cape Byron, the cardinal points, and a photo because

It’s tradition, and proof, to back up this true story.

 

Inky Indian Ocean,  swell-crashed cliffs, blue sky backdrop

But wait! “What the…?” Red balloons, all four of them

Weaving, bobbing, maintained height. Suspended? Floatation strop?

Photo first, drive round cliff, to solve mystery, phenomenon problem.

 

Drive round corner, blokes camped near cliff-top, beers, waving

“Come in!” So do a U-ee, drive into camp, they all turn away

One bloke says, “Thought you were two sheilas, us misbehaving.”

“From Perth, been here a week, no fish, just sharks, last Tuesday.”

 

Impressive camp: generator, hammer-drilled rock bolts for tent pegs

In limestone, with wind forty knots, offshore in direction

Good for balloon fishing, perilous for tents and drunk legs

So concreted pipes, rod-holders, reel and safety harness, each cliff-top section.

 

Standing at cliff edge, rod-lines-tethered helium balloons floating offshore

With dropper line, down forty metres to sea-surface, gang-hooked bait

Skipping, with wind changes, lines, balloons, adjusted, obey physics’ law

Patience, anticipation; alluring, tempting fish to their barbed fate.

 

Bloke chatting, face to me, back to rods, others in camp drinking beer

Suddenly, a rod smashed, I say, “You’ve got a fish on.”

He looks around, but rod is back up: “Nah, nothing here.”

Turns back, rod smashed again, I say, “A fish, I’ll bet, no con!”

 

Looks round again, rod is back up again, balloon steady

I say, “You turn round, we’ll both watch together!”

No sooner done, rod bows again, he yells, “Fish on, Freddy!”

Well… Blokes toss full beers, come running full tether.

 

Wide-eyed I watch, a rifleman prostrate on rocks, shoots all balloons out

Another, clipped into big-game and safety harness, pumping the fish

Another, large rope, lowers multi-gaff hook clipped to line with a shout

The fish pulled to cliff-edge, gaffed, hauled up, “don’t lose it” the silent wish.

 

A two-metre mackerel, “aboard” at last

Cheers, high fives, their first fish in a week

Me, the hero, long-haired “sheila”, a lucky blast

Beers all round, photos with me, and the fish so sleek.

 

 

                         Fred

Hard to find a more decent bloke

Generous, kind, cheeky, ready to joke

Honest and knowledgeable, easy to like

‘Blimmin’  this, blimmin’ that,’ the most he’d gripe

A chuckle, a laugh, his work punctuated

His worries shared, acceptance indicated

Foot-sore limp, he’d amble off home

Having brightened the day, wherever he’d roam…

 

 

                Skylie-Mylie

Skylie-Mylie what do you know?

Turly locks of hair just so

Swipes and taps the phone app row

Cheeky grin says Poppy “Hello”

Lots of faces she can grow

Climbing up the stairs she go

With her sore, bruised black toe

Moo-cow, Dolly, Minnie in tow

And dance the beat of 5Rocks disco

With lipstick painted bright pink mo

Nanna have her thongs back? “No!”

Walked up Orange Bowl very slow

Her smile and wave, she did show

Saw Kek and Didi, climb sand blow

Then in the creek to float the flow

Playing with big kids, a pocket dynamo

Into Nanna’s make-up, little tornado

Naughty mozzies bite? She say “Yo.”

In the bin her food she throw

Still drink mookie in belly below

Then off to sleepy-bye in night glow.

 

 

                            Secrets

“What’s the matter? You don’t seem right.”

“Nothing’s the matter, I’m alright.”

To me, “I’d like to go somewhere.”

“Where?” “Somewhere nice, I don’t care.”

“Well how about here, or over there?”

“No, that’s boring, like, totally nowhere!”

“Which of these, do you need?”

“whatever you like.” ( decision to cede)

“Do you want to… (insert various)?”

“If you want to.” (onset wariness)

If it doesn’t work out, not up to scratch

It’ll be my fault, with blame to match.

To me, “When you did… (insert numerous)”

False suspicions, motives egregious

Answers given don’t match the question

Vagueness, evasion, blame-shift suggestion

I’d like to help, but not allowed close

Recurring problems never verbose

Nothing ever, gets resolved

Intimate relationship not evolved

Hindsight judgement, life precarious

My perceived intent, so nefarious

Change the subject, on the offense

Attack seen as the best defence

Reminded often, my faults, with regrets

Tell me straight, tell me your secrets?

What are the things I need to know?

Stop the wonder, understanding grow

Help me reach the hidden rainbow.

 

 

                                                      Chokos

The weathered house we rented had a huge old Peach tree

It hosted a rampant Choko vine, bulk Chokos picked for free

Each evening at  dinner, the boiled Choko, nightly I’d gag

Age seven, couldn’t eat ‘em, my sorry plate they’d lag.

 

Ten pm, not allowed to leave, everyone else in bed

Made to sit, there or eat them, dinner table instead.

Then one night, old man home, from the pub pissed

Dragged me out, lump-of-wood thrashed, as his anger hissed.

 

Flogged me ‘til my arse bled, I slunk off then to bed

No Mum checked on me, cried self to sleep’s bloodshed.

Woke up, blood-glued to sheets, for the morning’s dread

To school, painful plank timber seat, wiped blood-stain red.

 

Nothing said, no apology, like it never happened

Still never ate Chokos, my stubborn resolve maddened.

One of many childhood floggings, including a king hit

From behind, busted my ear drum, lifelong Tinnitus remit.

 

When sixteen: “Go earn some money, watermelon picking!”

Dropped me off, middle of nowhere, school bus shelter sitting

No farm house, people, cars seen, no food or water to drink

He never came back to pick me up, not knowing what to think

 

Deserted or abandoned, like some stray, wayward pup?

Or punished, given a scare, or a controlling threat heads-up?

Mid-afternoon walked to the highway, hitched back to city brink

Some kindly Indigenous blokes, a more fatherly transient link.

 

Studying at home for Senior matric exams for the next day

Old man, “That’s enough study!” turns lights off straight away

Me: turn on, he: turn off, ‘til he rips fuses from the meter box

Same each night, did my best, per the two-hour exam clocks.

 

So finished school, ran away, new town to make my own way

Decades later, old man’s last days, sat bedside for a day

He started to say something, an apology? but refrained

Shrugged his shoulders, couldn’t do it, never saw him again.

 

And still today I marvel, at blokes whose father’s passing

Brings mourning, grief and sorrow, lost love everlasting

So sad but uplifting, their memories treasured, enduring

Their start in life amazing, normal and securing….

 

 

                          Brockas

Always a smile with which to greet

Always a laugh whenever we’d meet

Always inquiring, “How’s things going?”

Departing gift: another smile growing.

 

His percussionist prowess and musical bent

Playing the lark with mischievous scent

Bluesmobile, on the tools, having a beer

A genuine, decent bloke with cheer.

 

Happy go lucky, handy hints flowing

Lending a hand, always showing

By his qualities, forever we shan’t

Ever forget our good mate Grant.

 

 

                     The shirt shirk

Staying at our place, a nice young fella

Some actions, revealing, the real story teller

New girl to impress: ‘Can I iron my shirt?’

Showed him where, his ironing skills to flirt.

 

After ten minutes, no result, still there

Went to look, iron in hand, dumbfounded stare

Twenty one years, (his mum) never ironed himself

Taught my kids: do naught they can do, for themself.

 

Else pandered, spoiled, can’t/won’t help themselves

Adults, to relationships, they bring empty shelves

Teach kids to see, care, clean up their own mess

Consequences later, divorce, no life-long redress.

 

Show me a useless, lazy, (chauvinist?) today

I’ll show you a parent who made him that way

Then one day paired up with their significant other

Marriage a licence, to root a new younger mother.

 

 

 

             

      Real life after death

All those leaves, and multi-limbed trunk

Macadamia’s growth form’s fate self-sunk

Cyclonic winds blew it, arse-over-head

But its life not in vain, now that it’s dead

Trunk inverted, carved feet on the ground

Other bits n pieces, useful, hanging around.

 

 

                                          Sandy

They arrived on a Sunday, Main Street deserted

“Where the heck are we?” an inner voice blurted

Iris Muller’s rent rooms, then an old house

Then bought Barry Street, bargain for those with nouse.

 

A renovator’s dream, for a man so handy

As Rob is, with endless plans by Sandy

And a job at the High School, the new science Labbie

A forty year career, solid gold, nothing shabby.

 

A dickhead science HoD, neglectful, uncaring

Sandy joined the fashion stakes, dresses, accessories wearing

“No closed-in shoes in my science labs!” she defiantly declared

As the stories, the daily gossip, she readily shared.

 

On at least one occasion, Sandy got randy

Nine months later, a boy, all fine and dandy

A new target to fuss, a new face to boss

More than backfired, Jessie argued the toss.

 

And like most teachers, no-one knows the real story

The dedication, after hours, not done for any glory

Sandy defined her job, with list upon list

Friday arves in F Block, rowdy, half pissed.

 

Hands on hips, pursed lips, “Who took that prac?”

“You’ll get piss-bugger-all, if you don’t put it back!”

And then the health wobbles, cured by the wine  bottle?

Saw Sandy back on track, back to full throttle.

 

Always thinking, pushing change for the better, scheming

Never time, for idle day dreaming

Stopped or flat out, and asleep with one eye open

If there is perfection, she wouldn’t be left hopin’.

 

Sandy’s enthusiasm, or OCD? was never lagging

Nine calls before first bell, my resistance flagging

I invoked the inverse, third law of nagging

Ignore, but do it Sunday, reluctant heels dragging.

 

But a heart of gold, do anything for anybody

Easy to like, have a laugh, and a toddy

But cross the line, not care, disrespect everybody

Be prepared to be hit, with a verbal waddy.

 

A real mother hen, she’ll take anyone in

Giving’s always been her mortal sin

But don’t bother phoning, she’s never home

Rob will answer, “She’s out somewhere, on her social roam.”

 

With ‘whoreable’ for horrible, and ‘hairy’ for Harry

Her accent sometimes, confusion would carry

But the maple leaf autumned, true Aussie she became

Touched our lives, endearment, never to be the same.

 

And now  the big break, “Hell, I’m retired!”

Unwind the watch spring, the brain hard-wired

Now Rob’s full-time, hectic task master

Sandy, we thank you, salute you, as time now goes faster.

 

 

                              Covid dreamin’

Reminiscing recount: my youth at an abattoir

Subconscious brain response: my slumbers noir

Got my Moderna Covid booster

REM-sleep dreaming like I’m used ta:

 

~…I’m at my beach house, for Xmas feast

Had slaughtered and butchered a feral beast

Came home after a couple of drinks

The fridge side covered, by absconded meat ginks

Amoeboid steaks had escaped the door seal

Like bloody fridge magnets, moving, unreal!

Opened the fridge to giant macrophages queer

Jokingly said, “One of ‘em’s opened a beer!”

Snatched it roughly off the bottle’s crown

Lid still held while it sucked beer down!…~

 

Four a.m. woke me, to reality’s fright

Slight sinus headache, jab shoulder plight

Gold Coast mansion and grey dawn’s creep

Better write this down before back to sleep…

 

 

               TBHS Exceptionals

Some came, some saw, some conquered

Some squandered and got stonkered

Music, fashions, opportunities

Exciting, changing communities.

 

As young and free and restless

Rebellious, reckless, not feckless

We engaged our world with passion

Our spirit was without ration.

 

Long hair, new music, tie-dye

“Make love, not war!” the cry

Hippies, Groovy, pants aflare

Some flowers worn in our hair.

 

Our teachers no doubt frustrated

Our schooling, future, postulated

Encouraged by those high achievers

Worried by we non-perceivers.

 

Laughs, memories, good times

Friends, hanging out, prank ‘crimes’

Dissolved gas in water, rapid

Hughesie made Nitric Acid.

 

Drink taps, lunchtime, a loud fart

Bob, me, sprayed water, our part

Some Fartric Acid to make

“To the office!” the cuts, hands ache.

 

In the summertime, we pedalled

As progressives go, we medalled

Our Trinity days we spent

Becoming ourselves as meant.

 

It wasn’t the school so much

But the mix of people as such

Backgrounds, suburbs, cultures

We Aquarius change- vultures.

 

Lives enriched by maturity

Global pursuits a surety

Of talents, goodness, purity

No time, no place for obscurity.

 

So we meet again as Oldies

Nostalgic bliss not mouldy

The bonds still there, as one

Just like it’s just begun.

 

As we sadly miss those passed

Fond memories forever last

We’ll raise a glass to toast

Of school friends we can boast.

 

 

                        Deserted, ’til next time…

Driving near Cape Peron, deserted sheep station

Sandy track, tricky, near beach, sudden distraction

A scarecrow man, sitting, mid-air on tree tops

No… sitting atop marquee, on beach, revealed past copse.

 

Deserted marquee, white 4WD, six tinnies beached

Eight trawlers anchored, miles from nowhere, not a soul breeched

Made camp, calm sea, launched tinnie, five K’s up the coast

Found reef, fish certain catch, such remote outpost.

 

No sooner baited, white caps, ferocious breeze

Up anchor, bash back to camp, safety unease

Idyllic beach, now one metre waves wop onto shore

Sure to be pooped, so reversing in, over rubbley reef, calm before.

 

Yelled to wife, “Hop out, help me pull boat, once ashore!”

Looked around, she’s gone! Just two hands on bow I saw

Only heard, “Hop out…” Now up/down, hanging on bow

Yelled over surf, “Keep yer feet up, stone fish will endow.”

 

Now white knuckles, and panicked toes, showing at sharp end

Up/down dance, as the one-metre waves, I continued to fend

And thus head to sea, we managed , dry land to reach

Motor up, jump ashore, drowned rat and all, the tinnie to beach.

 

Then safe, dry in camp, a beer to contemplate

Same scene, deserted marquee, trawlers, intrigue conflate

And suddenly, a bloke appears, from tent, a relieving piss

Wind blew out tent side, mass of bodies inside, hidden bliss.

 

Soon after, another bloke launched a tinnie

Driving out to trawler, in the rough wind-swept sea

When it flipped, bloke clinging to hull upturned

Me, only witness, otherwise concerned.

 

About to raise alarm , when a would-be pisser appeared

Saw tinnie drifting seaward, yelled, help volunteered

New tinnie towed ashore wreck, way down the beach

Flipped it as well, when almost in reach.

 

So 4WD drove down to tow them out

Swam rope out, as landlubbers pointed, continued to shout

Idiots bogged it, on incoming tide

Thought morons will ask me to rescue their pride.

 

They managed to push it, much to my relief

Then back to ‘normal,’ deserted, tent-bound aperitif

And twilight revealed, it all became clear

Young women, prostitutes, work break, on beach strolled near.

 

They played ’til late, then early at daybreak

Trawlers slipped moorings, riddled with headache

Girls drove out, marquee closed, waiting, same deserted hue

Wives, girlfriends oblivious, to the secret rendezvous.

 

P.S. On the track to Peron, many Birridas to be found

Flat, pale, crusty, six to hundred metres across, mostly round

Don’t drive on them, you’ll break through, bog, get stuck

And lose your vehicle, drowned in calcium sulfate muck.

 

 

                  Ugly as a hatful

Funny how some things stick in your head

Something you saw, someone said

Tucked away somewhere, seemingly gone

Then suddenly triggered, memory on song.

 

Early primary school, about age eight

Morning recess, near port rack, line up, wait!

Choking foul stench, teacher found where at

Billy Bock, on school bus, had shat in his hat.

 

Climbing off roof, onto ladder, eight metres high

Cursed baggy shorts’ leg, over ladder rail, caught my thigh

“Bloody baggy Billy Bock shorts,” (he always wore)

A hatful of turds triggered, as I quietly swore.

 

 

                                     Charlie

Born and christened, Alan Charles, the year was thirty nine

Before my time, but for thirty-five years, a stoic neighbour of mine

Good fences do good neighbours make, or so poems spake, but Charlie and me, we had no fence

With such a good bloke, and Rozie’s invoke, it simply made no sense.

 

With Blue and Carol and us, with our new kids on the block

Mount J’s Country Club welcomed us, warmly, we readily joined the flock

With Charlie and Rozie, own teenage family to raise

My kids saw “auntie” Charlie, with, an aura of praise.

 

In his early years, it was footy and beers, and teaching by age eighteen

A social whirl, married his girl, the Mount Julian house in between

Stripping plant cane, a family he’d gain, and surviving cyclone Ada

The block at Conway, more jobs to do one day, he’d get to it sooner or later.

 

And many a year with plenty of beer, did Charlie and Rozie donate

With school on weekdays, Sailing Club weekends, as volunteers locate

Helping, serving, always reserving, their time, kids’ lives to better

And friends, gathered round, a drink, a yarn, and whistles to gladly make wetter.

 

A lover of history, pioneers, of places and faces, and, a hard-won tale

Restored old machinery, displayed downstairs, each with storied regale

Remote place visits, shooting and fishing trips, with Eddie, or sobriety’s Frog Davey

The only boat, which rum kept afloat, in Whitsunday’s Merchant Navy.

 

And through all this, with no hint of bliss, Charlie taught all the kids

Maths, grammar, maintained standards, “They don’t get past me,” he firmly forbids

While home on the Grange, no chance for change, with Charlie and the mower

The height set to “lower,” worm-food stower, the attentive, best, lawn grower.

 

The retirement years, the mango farm, veggies, the best corn ears, did Charlie’s garden grow

And cooking for Rozie with culinary skill, now with need to know

His life-long girl, to his love-strong pearl, though sometimes a little cranky

Make no mistake, with nought forsake, care, devotion, honest, not wanky.

 

Then ill-health struck, like a rogue Mack truck, but Charlie stood his ground

Typical Charlie, blunt and gnarley, for Rozie’s carer, a cure seemingly found

And blessed we were, with some good years more, his qualities did not dim

He just got on with it, just bein’ Charlie, dilemma, bad luck ne’er defined him.

 

When you lose a good mate, it’s hard to contemplate, the days of future passed

That familiar thing, that saw-blade “tring,” as wood is so neatly parted

That roller door squeal, and Hilux’s knock, diesel, daily being started

The muffled “splot,” as Bauple nuts got, dropped into buckets plastic

The comforting sight, the afternoon’s plight: “Which veggies to pick?” Fantastic.

 

So come what may, all will say, with Charlie’s final curtain

A bloody good bloke, a laugh, a joke, a rum or two for certain

“Righto,” he’d bray, and make his way, to offer a helping hand

We’ll sadly miss, on days like this, a man so plainly grand.

 

 

                  Nitmuluk sailing club

Nitmuluk, Katherine River, we hired an open canoe

Paddled up, forded rapids, through the third gorge’s rusty hue

Snorkeled, freshwater crocs, turtles, a barra swam up to my face

Swam in side waterfall, climbed escarpment, interesting scenic place.

 

The wind always blowing, downstream flowing, the gorge’s snaking track

Found some old rope in flood debris, time to head on back

Broke three sticks, a mast and two cross-arms, so as to configure

A beach towel sail and two sheet ropes, Nitmuluk’s first square rigger!

 

Wife up for’ard, feet to hold mast foot, sheets to position sail

Me, aft with paddle, a rudder to steer, shipshape hearty and hale

It sailed so well, we passed the other paddlers, the looks upon every face!

With effortless ease, we ran before breeze, our sailing skills to showcase.

 

Two blokes paddling, urgently upstream, came into view late in the day

Changed their course, to pass close by in an inquisitive way

As they passed by, looked at me, “You idiot!” with plain European accent

Heard his mate astern, “We will do that ja?” with envying hopeful assent!

 

 

                       Pizza delivery

Echidna Chasm, at Bungle Bungle, The Kimberley, WA

Started as a waterfall, monsoon mountain-side display

Over time, eroded its way back, in, nearly a K

One hundred metres, deep but narrow, arms-width today.

 

We sat at the end, at the base, of the thankfully dry waterfall

Thoughts of a horrid death, if there, after a wet season rain squall

Eating our lunch, left-over pizza, camp oven-cooked last night

Then noises, a tour group, young lady soon walked into sight.

 

American girl, intrigued, stopped, looked at me, the pizza, me, postulated

Hands on hips, “Oh my Gaard, that is so sophisticated!”

Thought we’d flown in pizza, nearest town 300k’s

Guess one might think that, with US cultural ways..,

 

 

                No fitting room

Most folks know the terror of the arachnoleptic fit

Frenzied slapping, face and head, and the odd spit

To remove the spider and its sticky silken thread

After blundering face-first, into cobweb dread.

 

So here’s me on a box, up on plank and trestle

No handholds, just a wall, for a tippy-toe wrestle

To remove a huge wasp nest, on the peak of the eave

Paintscraper pushing, a-cutting, with hope to cleanly cleave.

 

Most came off, one piece, chiselling at the rest

Next thing to my horror, I came off second best

A hand-sized Huntsman spider, parachutes on my face

Eight metres up, blinded swat, I somehow kept my place!

 

 

                    What’s in a name?

The date was set, I’ll never forget, that caesarian December day

Remember when, no scans back then, girl or boy to say

Just shape of bump, high or slump, things of much conjecture

With silent hope, the birth to cope, and hindsight’s certain lecture

“A boy, I knew!” called Maharmadoo, David, Potsum, even Fletchumdoo

Darling Kontaseric and nicknames more, than enough to perhaps imbue

An identity crisis, or some sort of -itis, in any normal kid

But the one wot stuck, just pure luck? is Fiddie cut short to Fid

Gave wistful memories, on wilderness itineraries, of fish and lines pulled taut

Cape York, Borroloola, Cape Keerweer, Arukun, “Good one Fid” the retort

But the boy born then, grown now amongst men, his name is not the key

Proud as I am, it’s not the glam, it’s his qualities plain to see.

 

 

            Surprised at Surprise Creek

On a bushtrack shortcut from Lichfield to Daly River

Came across Surprise Creek, literal truth giver

Walked to the top of the first waterfall plateau

Delighted to find a giant namma hole inflow.

 

Perfect four-metre circle, cylinder-like

Smooth vertical sides dropped down out of sight

Donned mask and snorkel, jumped in to look

Stunning clear water, swimming in ‘air’ mistook.

 

The walls adorned with dinner-plate algae, grey-green

The bottom, forty feet down, the likes never seen

Completely covered with spherical ‘drill’ stones

Awaiting the next flood to grind the bedrock’s bones.

 

Back to the surface to wife’s concerned hue

(Despite clear water, I’d disappeared from view)

A young couple, had arrived, just after I’d dived

Conversation awkward, amiss, contrived.

 

After they left, wife clued me in, embarrassed

Newly arriveds, poolside, me below, forgetful, careless

Freed from my pocket, emergency spare floated up

Surprise Creek delivered, a tampon blowup!

 

 

       Clear n present danger

“I’d hate to be, inside your head.”

She said to me, like I’m brain dead

Harder to know, what she’s saying

I can’t follow, logic fraying

Topic is jumped, with no segue

Pronouns bumped, he, she and they

The front is back, the left is right

Directions lack, try as I might

I get confused, ask a question

Then I’m abused, dumb suggestion

I’m left stranded, no way out

She talks left-handed, I cop the pout

I’ve learned to be, patient and mute

True love’s trustee, bears sweeter fruit.

 

 

                   The intervention

“So what’s your problem?” I asked surly Jack

“I don’t have a problem!” he sulkily spat back

“Thirty kids in your class, you’re the only one here

Sent by your teacher, your behaviour: nil endear.”

 

“You have any medical problems, causing your betide?”

“I’ve got ADHD,” he quickly replied

“How do you know that?” I keenly inquired

“I’ve been to the doctor, a certificate supplied.”

 

Said I, “A spectrum disorder.” He: “That’s not what I’ve got”

I explained: One end, real problem, the other end, not,

With every shade, of behaviour in between

Some kids no control, others, not ever seen.

 

But studies have shown, that of all kids diagnosed

Only two percent have, the real problem posed

The rest have bad behaviour, matching, similar

Due to environment, abuse, neglect, parenting in particular.

 

I asked him his thoughts for his future guide

What job, career, and resume required

“I’m gunna be a fireman,” he emphatically said

“I’m pleased, most your age, uncertain instead.”

 

Shrugged shoulders, no answer, a look of defeat

When I asked him how, what to do, what he’d need to beat

Those others, in few years, with whom he’d compete

For the few jobs on offer, he’d feel the heat.

 

His ignorance of resumes, job hunting established

I said,”OK, let’s pretend you’ve been short-listed, lavished

An interview, the questions, what will you tell them,

Of yourself, how your quals match the job, or system?”

 

“What d’ya mean?” My patient entrapment, intuition:

“I’ve done fire training, I know firefighters’ job definition

At a fire, it’s team work, attention, strict work behaviour

Your work mates face danger, you must be alert, a saviour.”

 

“So at interview, will you tell them you’ve got ADHD?

That you can’t concentrate, behave rules, complete tasks, to be

A trusted part of a trusted unit, crack emergency response team?”

“No way!” he cried, to which I said, “Why not? What d’you mean?”

 

“I wouldn’t get the job, if I told them that.”

“So you’d keep it a secret?” “Exactly, kept under my hat.”

“But people know you, now, in the future, and

Referees on your resume, interviewers, may show your hand.

 

“If I were you, and I truly had ADHD

I would make it my business, at all times to be

A person behaved in a manner to hide

All trace of my problem, attract praise and pride.

 

A flicker, a realisation, flashed on his face

He went back to class, my dialogue to his teacher I’d grace

And never again to my office he’d pace

His bad behaviour, now a null space.

 

But another boy sent, (there’s always another)

Soon, the naughty chair, his arse did cover

With serious hearing deficiency, in class equipped

Him: headphone aid, teachers: radio mic conscript.

 

Dialogue revealed a well-intentioned mother

An attention-seeking boy, spoilt by smother

Whose ambition, a “Steve Irwin” animal handler

How can that be, your hearing so obvious to pander?

 

So I told him a story, of a boy’s ADHD

Whose fireman’s career wasn’t to be

Unless… you know the rest; I left his subconscious brain

To join the dots, never to hear of him, ever again…

 

 

                   Cave critters

As speleologists, cavers, we were plainly rank amateurs

Make it up as we went, risk entrepreneurs

Exploring blind, sometimes lost, and forgetting turns

Look back, recall the way out, the desperate soon learns.

 

One cave ‘ended,’ progress stopped, by a long crevasse

A steel cable, suspended pulley, haul yer ass across

We had no pulley, a butcher’s hook our only cheap device

Hanging via Swami belt, the friction, no progress suffice.

 

So we used to chimney down the narrow crack

Then walk the cravasse’s guano bottom track

Then, muddy feet, chimney back up at the other side

To enter more caves, branching up, down, far and wide.

 

Flowstones, stalactites and shawls, all sparkley white

Hairy Maries, (cave centipedes), and bats, loom into sight

Our simple Dolphin torches, gave about five hours’ light

And ‘cave breathing’ groaning noises occasionally gave fright.

 

One cave we stumbled upon, surprised at what we saw

Previous visitors, carelessly or otherwise, left peanuts on the floor

Next time they’d sprouted, geotropism, one inch tall

Two weeks later, translucent yellow, knee height one and all.

 

One cave had a thirty-metre, right-angled, tight ‘crawl’ tunnel

Shed helmet, torch etc. slither arms-first down entrance funnel

Your head side-on, push gear ahead, inching, not for the faint-hearted

Return trip same, hours later, stinking, if someone had farted!

 

Another cave’s entry, a metre-wide hole, chimney down forty-metre shaft

To a huge cavern, hundred metres long, five sink holes, very deep draft

Secure our rope, abseil down, then many choices to explore

My only regret, no camera, no photos, in those days, simply too poor.

 

One night (always went at night, warm in winter, cool in summer)

Abseiling down, my long hair caught in the sticht plate: bummer!

Thought: loosen rope, abseil further, pull loosened hair back out

Hair pulled in further, me bent over doubled-up, ‘I’m stuck!’ I shout.

 

Flick torch on, spy a chance, yell to two mates already at the bottom

One climbs other’s shoulders, to reach ledges, relieved to hear, ‘Got ‘im!’

Twenty metres up, I stand on his shoulders, frantically remove my hair

Hours later I prusik back up, at ‘life-saving’ ledges I humbly stare.

 

Two a.m., on my motorbike, cold, making my way back home

Car roars up, on my back wheel, I ‘squirt’ ahead, avoid the hoon syndrome

Car flashes up, prepared for the worst, I spy the POLICE door sign

Pull over, dismount, rapid-fire questions, they take the aggressive line.

 

They, the only car that I’d seen! Me the only vehicle that they’d seen

They’d spotted my caving clobber, backpack, time of night: ‘Where’s HE been?’

Keen interest, asked all about caving, chatted for quite a while

They thought I was a cat burglar, plying my trade with guile!

 

 

                  Disdain!

Nanna driving Kelly, then aged three

To the hospital, new brother to see

‘Nanna why don’t you have a baby too?’

‘Nanna’s too old, no longer can do.’

 

Silence for a bit, thoughts carefully laid

‘So why not Mummy’s sister?’ age connection made

‘Babies need a Daddy, no man in her life.’

‘Why not her brother then, she’d be his wife?’

 

‘Girls can’t marry brothers, but stiil need a man.’

‘But what’s the man do, if that is the plan?’

‘He adds a tiny piece, to make a new bubby.’

Quiet contemplation, thoughts now troubley.

 

‘I know a baby grows, in the Mummy’s belly.’

‘But how does it get in there, to grow all swelly?’

‘Well Mummy’s got an egg, waiting there inside,’

‘For the Daddy’s bit, to make it decide.’

 

More ruminations, dreading next to hear

‘How’s the Daddy’s bit get in?’ Realised fear.

‘Umm…’ Confirming with her answer: Nanna’s got the ‘sillies’

Dismissive of her nonsense: ‘Oh Nanna… Willies!’

 

 

                    Respect

Was walking up stairs to class one day

Books in hand, recalling what and when to say

When a full-bodied spit, lobbed onto my head

Looked up, spied culprit, ran up the rest instead.

 

Grabbed the lad roughly, by the collar

Pushed against wall, lectured him, on scholar

Sent to the office and forgot all about it

When he left school, he’d stop and chat, quite a bit.

 

Two decades later, a mate phoned me up

Was coming up north, to help fence or shtup

A mate’s new hobby farm just down the road

Come and catch up, with drink I will goad.

 

I drive to the fence line, get outta the car

Blokes drilling post holes, stretching wire, near and far

“Isn’t that young such n such?” I say to George

“Yeah, at smoko, just now, he did disgorge.”

 

Said when at school, he’d spat on your head

All four of them spitting, got you instead

Was secretly pleased to see what you did

‘Cos at the time, you throttled the wrong kid!

 

 

              The last old cutter

Drove into Strahan, mid-afternoon

Gestated rain clouds, cold-front ‘monsoon’

No rooms for rent, so put up the tent

Met old-timer, good yarns, time well spent.

 

Took some beers, him wheelchair bound

Life story, a treasure, as I found

At age fourteen, his life’s work started

The last Huon pine cutter now departed.

 

Rowed his boat, clinker-built, heavy

Up harbour, Macquarie: rough, tidal levy

Then up the Franklin, Gordon, cold counter currents

With regular cold fronts, oft-flooding torrents.

 

Steep-sided gorges, deluge, no chance to spread

The recurrent floods, nature’s dread

But for Huon Pine, choice moist habitat

Fine silt mud, ‘intertidal’ zone flat.

 

Very slow growing, extremely long-lived

Huon’s survival, chemicals, phloem tube sieved

Poisons residual, its timber the best

Boat-building treasure, no rot, nil pest.

 

Old Bernie toiled, in this cold damp clime

Hauled the boat, waist deep in rapids, sapping time

Camped in steep forest, a tarp, a billy

A camp fire for warmth, privations willy-nilly.

 

The trees were felled with cross-cut saw

De-branched and topped, as well, before

Hauled into river flow, with block and tackle

To float downstream, caught in log-jam shackle.

 

With enough logs, after weeks of work

Row miles downstream, rope log-raft cirque

Drift out-going tide, down to Strahan

Where sawmill, from logs: timber, fiddleback born.

 

He spoke with awe, of the beauty of Lake Pedder

Oxbows avoided, boat dragged up mountain, then down sledder

Flood retreats, up forested hillside

Once seventy feet, forced two-week reside.

 

But the cold, the cramped, harsh energy spent

Arthritis crippled, limbs stiffly bent

Decades of work, the end of rowing boaters

Came new-fangled things, called outboard motors!

 

 

             Major look, ya silly chook

Was out in the boat, driver training this day

Read riot act, students onshore, behaviour: Stay!

Saw one boy running, diving through long grass

Thought when I get back, I’ll kick his arse.

 

Reprimand ready, packing boats to go, I saw him working

A plump red chook, tucked under one arm, smirking

“Caught it in the long grass, Sir, I’m taking it home!”

Said, “I’ll hypnotize it, you can work, it won’t roam.”

 

They thought I was joking, but soon gathered round

Dismayed, chook laid on its back, on the ground

Brought my finger down slowly, between its eyes

No touch, just calm withdrawal, straight, then rise.

 

Repeating this roughly circular, finger-tip motion

A chook will freeze, entranced, without any notion

The restraining hand’s gone, it’ll lay on its back

Hypnotized, ‘til woken by, a sharp noise, clap or whack.

 

Students all pissed themselves, disbelieving gawks

Then I clapped and woke it, took off with squawks

Boys diving, air swings, skinned knees, but re-caught

Most surprised, them or chook, at the lesson taught?

 

 

            History interrupted, gone

Went to the War Museum, Boulder-Kalgoorlie, in for a surprise

Little old building, glass-top cabinets, full of ghostly cries

Letters from the trenches, to partners, parents, girlfriend

Factual, larrikin, pining; lovingly, chillingly, fading ink penned.

 

Museums and archives are filled with detailed documents

Letters: personal and official, preserved hand-written testaments

Events political, expressed opinions, intimate love and relationships

History’s nuance, personal, mundane, stuff of yesteryear’s comic scripts.

 

Then digital disruption: letters now text, email, pics and phone calls

Numerous but ephemeral importance, deleted as storage space falls

And lost forever as devices die, upgraded, stolen, lost or dumped

History erased, none to display, culture’s future introspections bumped.

 

                         Hindsight

Bullied and bashed throughout my childhood

Narcissist father who never should

Had the favour of my long-suffering mother

Servile life to an abusive drunk’s smother.

 

Speaking up, a defiant slow learner

Abuse and flogging, a regular earner

Never, not once, heard the word ‘love’

The scars remain, from the iron glove.

 

To adulthood some issues, unrealised

Subconscious, not maleavolent, but still despised.

But self-education, awareness, steadfast wife

Self-improvement, the real me, a better life.

 

 

            Can ya believe it?

Some people suffer chronic disease

Others by accident, maimed with ease

Some are burdened with refugee status

But we’ve got unlucky catastrophe conflatus.

 

Some people homeless, struggle to survive

Others abused, sad memories revive

Some encumbered, for life, a huge arse

But us? Well we’ve got long grass!

 

Yarse, yarse, we’ve got long grass

All my fault, a pain in the arse.

 

So I puts on me hat, (early warning device)

When the sky is falling, best health advice

Been away two months, now all forlorn

Lo the dawn, go mow the f’n lawn!

 

Start the mower, knee-deep in grass

Cough, splutter, it died in the arse

Carby Jets, filters, all choked up

Out with the tools, mechanical checkup.

 

Yarse, yarse, we’ve got long grass

Pressure is on, hope it starts.

 

Strewth! Plastic carby fixed to fuel tank

Remove starter, linkages, and ignition bank

Cowling, crankcase breather and two head bolts

Just to clean jets! Designed by dolts.

 

Engine fired, see Dearest: “Long grass gone.”

“Stupid bastard, you’re always wrong!

Still there, needs raking, now it’s shorn,

And all that’s left is dull brown lawn!”

 

It came to pass, I mowed the long grass

Unlucky in life, with sparse lawn farce…

 

 

                   Old Laurie

Camped at McGowans, North Kimberley coast, fish and oysters aplenty

Went into town, Kalumburu, sought traditional owner’s identity

To seek permission, to camp further north, up near Old Pago mission

Town Clerk’s office, said see old Laurie, ask him his favoured position.

 

Silver-haired fella, three score n twelve, old by Indigenous standard

But cheeky by nature, I liked him at once, like old fiends we chatted, candid

‘Til slimy white bloke, the bishop, it seems, sat beside us eavesdropping

Laurie’s elder status, what business with stranger? Snooping never stopping.

 

A spark, respect, he piqued my interest, I asked to return to chat

And not a week later, we sat on the ground, two hours we did just that

But the day before that, fish no lack, back to town for supplies

Found a conspiracy, pack of lies, to our disgust, not surprise.

 

Got into town, church fuel station, Irishman came to serve me

Paper-white skin, accent so thick, here one week, the heat be

All he could bear, something not right, silently thought, what secrets?

Brought such a bloke, to a place like this, whose future regrets?

 

Then on to the… “Shop closed,” big town meeting

Slimy Bishop, to crowd, microphone bleating

Saw shopkeeper lonesome, stood under tree

Went over, “Goin’ on mate?” Reply really riled me.

 

His town council’s only shop closing, surely sent broke

Cos Bishop started “Takeaway,” flocked customers stoke

Bellies: deep fries, battered sav trans fats, two litre coke

At prices exorbitant: heart attack, diabetes, and stroke!

 

The town store stocked, a fair range of goods, considering its remoteness

Frozen meat cuts, vegetables, fruit, most with reasonable freshness

All that’s needed, to cook decent meals, but the sneaky takeaway con

Hissed Bishop Slimy: “Open only meal times, no competition. Come on!”

 

Shopkeeper said, town shop profit, was to bitumen the main street

Now never happen, all town profits going, hoovered, in order to meet

Church targets, investments, directives, issued from down south

No care, concern, not one cent returned, to one single hungry mouth.

 

But Laurie was born, at old Pago Mission, long, since, abandoned

His people from here, rescued overland, bombed “Koolama” crew stranded

Said during same war, Kalumburu airstrip, launched bombing raids: Timor, occupied

Japanese knew, Darwin too far, for fuel range, return distance plied.

 

So Japs tailed the bombers, to find their home base, then returned with bombs of their own

Destroyed the town, killing Laurie’s brother, future intentions shown

The bombers blown, not one single bomb, on runway, left undamaged

Laurie’s people fled the war, bushtucker-filled bellies, the old ways, not disadvantaged.

 

But regained his “white” life, found a wife, extended family, estates

And once a month, to Darwin he’d fly, a few beers, laughs, old mates

With mischievious grin, said don’t eat too many, my oysters will fill your pencil

And many a chuckle, we shared in the dirt, his humour wicked, wilful.

 

As we talked, the old ladies sat, a circle, card game entangled

And across the road, a basketball game, young gun’s attire be-spangled

Long baggy shorts, USA shirts, baseball caps backwards, just so

Said, “These kids learn old ways, bushtucker?” Paused, looked sad, said, “Slow…”

 

 

                      What odds…?

Went out to the rock place, on the other side of the river

The Ord, Kunnunurra, my petrology hope to deliver

A piece of local rock, ancient, pre-dinosaur, sedimentary

Polished samples on display, colours, evidentiary.

 

Bloke said,’Out the back mate, take yer time, your pick.’

A yard of rocks and boulders, a nice one now the trick

Finally found one, football size, took it back inside

‘Where’d ya get this?’ like I’d done something snide.

 

‘This is some of our good stuff, not usually for sale but,

Your eagle eyes found it, my mouth I’ll have to shut.’

He put it on his diamond saw, cut a piece clean off

Wetness showed the colours, observors’ eyes to quaff.

 

Took it home, intentions sown, ‘One day I’ll carve a shape.’

Years later, replumbed the sink, three tap holes now agape

‘I know, that Kimberley rock, the cut-off piece will do!’

Shaped it, glued it over holes, a shelf with patterned hue!

 

Sealant as clear lacquer to highlight age-old colours

And there it was! The most brilliant of exposures

Whole fossilized prawn, complete in sagital section

Wafer thin, a random cut, revealed it in perfection.

 

Went to look at the other cut face, on the bigger piece

There’s not a trace, or a smudge, or skeletal crease

Saw blade thickness took it, turned it into dust

With odds like that, my store of luck, now surely bust!

 

Author’s note:

Two days after this poem I wrote

Forty-seven years’ driving to note

My first prang, three-car pile-up

Two written off, no small hiccup…

 

 

           Little Vee

Cheeky baby, wants ebbysing

To her moufey, little hands bring

‘Miles and ‘miling, cheeky grin

Dribbley bubbles down her chin.

Chubsey legs, always kicking

Waving armsies, her sides slapping

Dorgeous baby sings little song

Like a squeaky balloon stretched long.

Cracks up loudly in her car seat

Likes sung songs, music’s beat

Tummy time’s boring, high chair’s cool

Can look about, grab toys and drool.

Outdoors dirl, likes garping about

When sweepsie time, she starts to shout

‘Nang nang’ now it’s time to dream

Belly full of milk and cream.

Dearest liddle sausage, learning fast

Roll over , sit up, reach and grasp

Wide awake, midnight, time to play

Blue eyes, belly laughs, our hearts melt away.

 

 

Unfinished business: living rent free

He came at me surly, angry as hell

The firetruck word at me he would yell

And in between spitting, kicking, punching the wall

It took me an hour, to get him to bawl.

 

Not to be mean, vindictive nor harsh

But to purge emotion, find reason to laugh

The core of his problem thus revealed

A mean bully step-dad, hate’s dividend yield.

 

I said, “Seems you don’t like this bloke.”

“I fuckin’ hate him,” he loudly spoke

“Gunna smash his fuckin’ brain, with an iron bar!”

The cue I’d sought, the door now ajar.

 

“You know, this person you hate most, by far

Is controlling you, your thoughts, interactions, who you are.”

“No he’s fuckin’ not!” “But mate he is, ‘cos see,

You’ve let him in your head; living there rent free.”

 

“He decides how you feel, angry, upset, everywhere, at his whim

Anytime, all the time, ‘cos you’ve chosen to let him.”

“How does it feel, to know the person most loathed

You’ve given the power, control, your mind, unclothed?”

 

Silence, but a grudging look of realised determination

To which I added: “Good news is your brain’s extrication

Is a simple thought-fumigation of habitual encrustation

Think three times a day, in two weeks a new habit, liberation!”

 

Within two days, he’d moved to a new home, friends

Changed his subjects, on which new career goal depends

And I know not today where/what he’s become,

But I’m sure, rent free in his mind, there is no-one.

 

And thus many a kid gained a future, emotive liberty

By dumping the lodger, living rent free

Young girls raped, angry and sad

A sex-abused boy, by his mum and step-dad.

 

Sometimes I knew not, what caused the problem

No matter, the hated, the solution still “Sod them!”

I will decide who lives in my head

Especially long after the controller is “dead.”

 

And one more clue, to help you as well

Snide people, toxic “friends,” competitors who sell

Behind your back, lies, false stories, attributed to you

In order to poison, of you, others’ view.

 

For valued relationships, consult, educate

For losers, ignore, draw pleasure, don’t obfuscate

‘Cos their ire, jealousy, envy, duplicitous false glee

Means comfort, you’re living, in their head, rent free!

 

But a thirteen old, when I asked: “How playing rugby helps?”

“I can legally hurt people; my anger it palps.”

Before I could help him, he left our school, me

I can’t help but wonder, who/where he is now? In me, rent free?

 

 

                       Fixed or foxed?

Countless things I’ve fixed, rebuilt, modified, improved

From engines, to appliances, electronics, the fault removed

Bad design, under-built components, or just wear

Fit new parts, make new improved bits, I don’t care.

 

Spotting a fried resistor, re-soldering a circuit board dry joint

Cutting a brass gear to replace a weak plastic point

With technical manual help, the right torque setting

Or welding a new part, re-wiring, better outcome getting.

 

I’ll have a go at most things, ‘cos I can look

Pull it apart, see the fault, consult a book

But it’s amazing how much you have to know, to grow

In order to now realise how little you know.

 

And increasingly so, with computers, software, digitisation

Control systems, mechatronics, miniaturisation

Hidden, no visible clue, to how things work or fail

Broken? Get a new one. Repair knowhow beyond the pale.

 

Terminology, high tech, this increasingly esoteric multiply

The mindset: Dunno, complete mystery, don’t even try

Opens the door to agnatologists, and snake oil quackery

Void filled by trickery and pseudoscience ‘doctoropathy.’

 

Said she, “Can you fix my car? The electric window has died.”

An hour to remove the posh door trim, no screws, click-tabs hide

“Oh, sorry, it’s the passenger door I meant!”

“Oh.” At least the other door’s German secrets I’d circumvent.

 

Inside the door, a world of its own engineering complexity

Electronic sensors, motorised locks, window, airbag perplexity

All I could do was check, ensure, the maze of wire connections

Re-assembled, tried it, no success, apologetic conniptions.

 

“Thanks for the repair!” “Sorry, did my best, beyond me.”

“No, it works fine now!” I’d used the wrong code key!

Thought: ‘Lucky you didn’t take it to the glitzy car dealer

Would’a scammed a thousand bucks, fake fault revealer…’

 

 

                   Good bombs? Too right…

The black basalt boulders, jutting from the rough red road

Shattered the tyre, ten plies, no match for the heavy load

Fitted a spare, checked boat, trailer, other vital supplies

Hundreds of Ks bush-bashing, minus one spare, patently unwise.

 

So pulled into Laura, hit the pub, quite late in the light of day

Two blokes said they’d fix it, to their shed, make yer way

One Indigenous, one ex-German, they were dressed in their very finest

Sat’day night, at the pub, on to-do list, importance, the highest.

 

They worked their arses off, slide hammer to break rusty bead

Sweat poured off them, new tube, used tyre, that I’d certainly need

When fitted, not one spot of dirt, on white shirts, that I spied

“How much?” I asked. “Gis forty bucks eh?” to which I replied,

 

“Mate, I’d pay thirty bucks at home, just for the re-newed tube”

But not a cent more would they take, just happy with gratitude

So I said, “I’ll sleep on the ground, behind the pub tonight

And I’ll shout you beers all night, OK…? to help to see you right.”

 

So we had a drink or two, and then some more… and some more

The German asked, my fishing target, my secret, what’s the score?

When I told him, he said with disdain, descriptive, dangerous display

He fished with bombs he made, and, “You know you’re going ze wrong way!”

 

He said he’d stand on safe high banks, and spot wary fish

Then light the bombs, throw them in, with a silent wish

Said with a laugh, but certain smug aplomb

“We Germans may haf lost ze war, but we make a fucking good bomb!”

 

Fifteen years, I reminisce later, when telling this story to a bloke

Who a year before had passed through country, of which, I had just spoke

Said he met an old German man, said sounded like my old mate

His right arm to the elbow, missing, a bomb, his reputed fate!

 

 

                      Heads up

Meat head, soft head, blonde head born

Shorn head, prickle head, hat head worn

Fat head, thin head, pin head seen

Dick head, piss head, shit head been

Bone head, big head, cock head called

Cool head, heavy head, weary head stalled

Boof head, bald head, fuck head never

Old head, sure head, wise head clever.

 

Styza

Skylie-mylie how are you?

Skylie-mylie, peek-a-boo

Turly locks, that she grew

All hair clips she, will undo

Will not wear a single shoe

Cheeky smile, and kisses blew

Off to bed, when sleepy Sue

Wakes up mostly, right on cue

Cranksey when, new toofie-pegs due

Her shyness soon, she outgrew

She call Nana! then Boo-boo

Mum, Dada, Didi, and Kek too

Skylie-mylie says, all words new

Like a parrot, like she knew

Multi-lingual, three languages true!

Parrot, Gabble-gabble and bossy-boots ensue!

Everything seen, she knows how to

Like zips and lids, she knows to unscrew

Pushing buttons without a clue

No bubba photo, chucks a blue

Skylie-mylie, hug benji-boo

From the mower, scared she flew

Skylie-mylie like, bubple to chew

Bapes, ham, cheese, but brekky don’t do

Skylie-mylie drink macca-boo

Bossy boots: denied her due

A dorgeous baby, her faults are few

When her nappy, smell like… phew!

Mitta-moo has done a poo!

But even so, we love you….

 

                   Nude fishin’

You paid fifteen bucks, per night for the key

To the gate, Theda Station, north Kimberley

Drive through, re-lock gate, then forty K drive

Bush track to Morgan River, Honeymoon Pool arrive.

 

The gorge enters the pool via a perfect rock waterslide

The pool fringed by Pandanus, shady, long and wide

The name, isolation, the ambience, screams romance, rude

So we spent our days there, relaxed, completely nude.

 

Wearing only our North Queensland safety boots (rubber thongs)

We rock-hopped all the way (forgot our hats; nongs!)

To the top of the gorge, to the rocky escarpment

Where the river, five waterfalls, tunnels entered its torrent.

 

Caught three nice barramundi, more than enough

Poor wife, smashed up every time, did it tough

Left the walk home late, last K in the dark, no light

Top of the waterslide, unsighted, wife gave her lure one last flight

 

Good fish hit, couldn’t pull it in, felt along the line to my dismay

She’d cast up over the rock face, in a blind-arc way

So I shed the rubberies, crawled up in the dark, following the line

Disentangled it, she reeled it in, another barra landed fine.

 

Fresh fish for dinner, cold beers, French profiteroles in the camp oven

Life couldn’t be sweeter, night sky, camp fire sloven

Sweet dreams, the waterslide babble, then early morn sunrise

The gorge rocks reflected, the very air coloured, brilliant orange surprise.

 

Our days ended, clothes on, return to reality jade fade

Photos developed, me starkers at top of a gorge cascade

Wife got a black felt pen, drew on a pair of dick stickers

Could die happy tomorrow, but not showing those city slickers.

 

         Professor Longhair

Explaining liferaft survival techniques, to a Marine class this day

When a girl asked, “Sir why wear your hair, long, in that way?”

Said, “I grew up in the sixties, hippie era, with flowers in our hair

Everything groovy, make love, not war, and always play it fair.”

 

Explained my generation was going to change things

Save the planet, protect the environment, shrink poverty rings

But… the reality is, my generation made things worse

Many times worse, at us, our kids’ kids would curse.

 

My generation had grown bald, fat and rich

At others’ cost, with excuses, lies to pitch

So my long hair was my protest, point of difference

They all stood, applauded, spontaneous, me, thus chuffed, hence.

 

Then in addition, to them I gave, some sage advice and stuff:

If you keep the same haircut, for long enough

So far behind the times, soon you will be

Always ten years, ahead of the world, they’ll plainly see.

 

School reunions

She walked right up to me, with no hesitation

Apologised profusely, her behaviour, end probation

Thanked her sincerely, but assured her that, at age forty-five

No need to dwell on things, I’d forgotten, to revive.

 

She questioned about school, kids, problems today

In hindsight, my answers gave her confidence to say

The cause, her behaviour, was sex-abuse since infancy

The reason for daughters, “father” told her, evil infamy.

 

As adult, tried to prosecute, her mother refused witness

A double betrayal, final straw, for her mental fitness

Caused life in/out of hospitals, severe depression

But now on top of things, married, daughter, happy expression.

 

I apologised sincerely, my ignorance, beginning teacher

Aware, strategies, kids helped, I now could’ve reached her

We hugged, we both cried, but she assured me that

They were tears of happiness, relieved, cathartic, our chat.

 

Now in her same science class, way back then

And present, same reunion, together again

Was a doctor, teacher, engineer, lawyer, successful businessmen

All of whom she beat, in science exams, most often.

 

Except for times, no study, “Dad” in her bed

Injustice aside, she could’a been anything, real Dad instead

She gave me permission, gladly, to retell her story

Same hope as me, help other kids, denied life’s glory.

 

To happier times, another cohort’s reunion

Post-dinner, night clubbing, my wife and three women

Same lovely girls when at school, successful adults

Told us their story, with alcohol’s impulse.

 

Came back to their hometown, a week before

So much to catch up, relive, compare score

Brought old school diaries each, spent the whole day

Drinks, paged memories, read day by day, come what may.

 

First girl read with horror, ‘Had sex with X’, OMG!

Second one dismayed, hesitated, embarrassed to see

Same day, same stud, had sex with me!

Third girl reneged, “Not reading mine, was absentee!”

 

“No, no, we made a pact, we all agreed

No matter what, each day we would read.”

A wrestle ensued, diary forcibly possessed

Lo and behold, same day, same X… you know the rest!

 

Seems Romeo, same story, had conned them all

Claimed girlfriend had dumped him, a forlorn call

Rest of day plotting, sweet revenge’s fitting downfall

Would liked to have been there, a fly on the wall.

 

Yet another venue/ year-level group, I went out the back

To yarn with the smokers’ club, missing from the pack

Bloke said to me, “Remember that time you threw me outta class?”

I’d forgotten, apologised, “I shouldn’a done that, alas.”

 

Been giving me lip, sitting near the door, a pest

Grabbed him by shoulders, lifted, hauled him over desk

Placed him upright, on his feet, on the veranda

Him pale, silent, his insults no longer to pander.

 

He said, “No, no mate, don’t apologise, it’s all good

Best thing that happened to me, woke up, as I should!”

Floored me a bit, just for a second

A “kick up the arse,” sometimes the best weapon.

 

Reunions, old unions, they are the most fun

To see former students, success they’ve become

The hard work, challenges, stress takes its toll

Scarce rewards, the adult product, prides the soul.

 

               The leaf

Hitching a ride, one hot afternoon

Old Falcon wagon, stopped pretty soon

Walked to the window, seats choc-a-block full

“Sure you got room?” “Yeah mate, no bull.”

 

All six descendants, from the Kuku Yalanji tribe

Passed round flagon, me, sixteen, to imbibe

Half rum, half sherry, it sure had some kick

We stopped at a river, “Rest up for a tick.”

 

We talked of their families, names, their places

Nice blokes, generous, their cheeky faces

Easy to like, their yarns, their nature

Stark contrast, the public, their perceived stature.

 

Old Herb then played some songs on ‘the leaf’

I asked, “Could ya teach me?” To my relief

“Easy, come in the bush,” showed me the tree

Right leaf to take, age-wise, after a pee.

 

Back to camp, sat back on the ground

Showed how to tongue the leaf, right way round

Pissed themselves laughing, hooting at me

Music, not fart noises, easy as can be.

 

Handshakes, “Thanks blokes,” time that I left

Hitch into town, before the Sun went down west

“Nah mate, we’ll drop ya, we got to take John.”

“His bandage, the hospital, we won’t be long gone.”

 

So we jumped in the car, drove into town

Told them, “This’ll do,” pointed, “My place just down…”

Stopped, got out, “Thanks blokes,” sadly waved ‘Bye’

They turned round, drove straight back, no hospital go by!

 

 

               A rum deal

Climbed up out of gorge, Karrijini, Pilbara, late in the day

Vehicle, camp trailer, new visitors, parked just down the way

He sat on a post, her some distance away, “This pair are blueing.”

Wife: “How so?” Said, “Check the non-verbals, both are stewing.”

 

“How’s it goin’ mate?” as we walked past to camp

“Not real good, trailer’s broke, can’t fix or revamp.”

“Give me a yell, some bits I’ve got, may be of help.”

He came over later, offer accepted: “I’m a self-help whelp.”

 

Looked at the trailer, chassis rail, spring hanger torn out

So got him to wire two batteries, series, more volts to flout

While I taped welding glass in hole cut out of stubbie carton

Re-aligned hanger, and welded it, strong and more spartan.

 

He said, “Do you like a rum? We’ll have one or two.

My mate’s distillery, Kununurra, his new first brew.”

Sat in cool night, sipped Milky Way view, their lights went out

So hit the sack, tomorrow’s gorge: Handrail to scout.

 

Packed, leaving, he came to apologise, wife sick

Offered half-litre of rum, but warned me to stick

To a single nip, as un-cut, absolute, ninety-six percent

Showed me bottles, labelled, wax-sealed, autograph indent.

 

Asked my travel plans? “Heading south, no timetable.”

“We’re between Busselton, Bunbury, drop in, stay, if able.”

Wife gave phone numbers, written on a card

Said thanks, goodbyes, an offer not to disregard.

 

Some time later, camped opposite Dirk Hartog, Shark Bay

Virtual desert, limestone, plastic water tank leaking. Dismay!

Patch kit instructions: ‘Clean glued area with strong solvent first.’

The rum! Unknown, un-tasted, submersed, we’ll not die of thirst.

 

Awoken that night, one a.m. metal scraping sounds, rapid

Mice! Chewing, stove-side against, pistachios, sapid

Light on, down from bed, wife: instructions, “Over there!”

“No, here! No… Two of them!” Squashed one, other returned lair.

 

Water tank fixed, rum did the job, reading, later next morning

Fact sheet on wildlife, rare pebble mound mouse, warning:

Endangered (oops! now more so… ) guessed snakes round campfire

Not bread cooked in camp oven, but plump mice they inquire.

 

Bunbury, month or two later, phoned landline number

No answer. Operator: dis-used CBD line, in disconnect slumber

Tried mobile, got stranger, no clue, no idea, no relation

Figured I’d been bumped, expectation deflation.

 

So off to the bluesfest, Bridgetown on Blackwood

Town booked out, so riverside road-end camp made good

Lo and behold, who drove into campground next door?

A camptrailer, same welded chassis, same Landcruiser I saw!

 

Went over to window, “Tried ringing you pair!”

She, chin down on chest, plainly guilty by stare

He told me he’s known to go rank, on the rum

So ‘missus’ conspired to circumvent, overcome!

 

The Game

We hear it all over, time and again

Bullied victims, their tales of woe

Of lives stressed, ruined, psychological pain

Themselves, friends and family, tears to flow.

 

With workplace, private lives, text, internet

Nothing’s sacrosanct, with cyber access

Bullies find ways, to get cruel needs met

Victims unknowingly, help their success.

 

So what motivates bullies? Nastiness? Hate?

They mostly get a kick, out of seeing a victim

Show a reaction: fear, anger, upset at the bait

By responding : a look, emotion, a reply, some dictum.

 

The bullying game always needs two

Bully, victim, that’s rule number one

No victim, no game, so minus you

To stop the game, before it’s begun.

 

But how? you say, such upsetting taunt

Ask yourself first, are they actually true?

And whether or not, who cares? Don’t daunt

Hold your nerve, don’t respond, don’t give a clue.

 

The bully’s response, that you won’t play the game?

They’ll try harder, up the ante on you

But harden your resolve, no response, the same

Keep calm absent hue, the bully’s best due.

 

But how, you say, when you’re angry, upset?

To you I’ll say, here’s rule number two:

No-one can make you angry, upset, mind beset

Unless you choose to let them; and if you do,

 

You’ll let them decide, how you feel

They’ve won the game, you’ve lost, so ask

Who should decide, how I feel, then deal

But ignore the bully; how will they feel? Your task.

 

They’ll be pissed off: you won’t play the game

Who’s won then? Yes! I thought you’d be pleased.

It’s really that simple, ignore their aim

Don’t play the game, bully gone, crisis eased.

 

Bullies are good, at reading hot buttons

The right ones to push, to goad your anger

Lab rats learn buttons, become reward gluttons

Outsmart the lab rats: ignore the angler.

 

To many a person, I’ve taught this lesson

The bully, to live in your mind, rent-free, otherwise

A habit to break, anger, response obsession

Winning the game, by simply not playing, to, their teasing lies.

 

One angry boy who used to hurl chairs around

Priceless grin, when I taught him, the game understood

Saw him hugging a boy, as I walked the playground

‘Pressed his buttons sir, explained the game, now making it good!’

 

And one final warning, for you to pass on

Don’t waste your brain cells, on hate and spite

It’s like you swallowing some poison

And expecting them to die overnight.

 

 

Treated by a mushroom

I went out on a boat tour, to an island denuded

Of plague rats and possums, where Kiwis breed, secluded

Tour guide spoke matter of fact, but, mostly bullshit

Of nature, false observations, he was surely full of it.

 

Near a nice beach, to my delight and surprise

Amanita mushrooms, from Christmas cards I’d recognize

White stem, bright red capsule, dappled with white spots

The origin of Santa Claus, not widely known by lots.

 

The shamans of cold Lapland, used in times of old

Psychoactive ‘fly Agaric,’ for wise visions to unfold

Many died of overdose: how much to consume?

Then discovered reindeers, ate them sans doom.

 

Only noticed side-effect, a bright red-coloured nose

But not so much, the song suggests, in the dark it glows!

So shamans ate yellow snow, reindeer piss, safe dose

Enough to alter mind-state, experience to engross.

 

Reputed main sensations, descended from their high

Everything bright red, while flying high in night sky

So someone wrote a song, Rudolph, fact-based fantasy

Now commercial racket, red Santa’s sleigh heresy.

 

Don’t think the poor tour guide, liked being upstaged

But bet today, any Amanita, my story, will be engaged

But you must now be careful, of this truth to tell

‘Cos little kids’ excitement, of Santa, you’d dispel.

 

Sewing’s for so and so’s

Teacher was absent, so I went to take her class

A sewing lesson, twelve year-old boys, hmmm… potential farce

Looked at the machines, faces behind them

Twenty past eight looks, not happy, solemn.

 

‘By the looks on your faces, you blokes don’t want to be here.’

‘We hate sewing!’ said one boy with a sneer.

‘I don’t know, I reckon sewing’s a really handy skill.’

Their expressions told me I was pushing it uphill.

 

‘Who’s on turtle… who’s on rabbit?’ various hands went up

‘Never learned sewing, but jobs I’ve done, it’s a really good back-up.’

‘Like what?’ said a boy with a skeptical tone

Daring me to respond, expecting academic drone.

 

‘My motorbike seat fell to bits, so I bought some vinyl.’

‘Used the old one, cut a pattern, sewed it, perfect fit final.’

‘I sewed the upholstery, made my own sunken lounge.’

‘I’ve sewed sails, re-covered chairs, car seats with what I could scrounge.’

 

Now on a roll, with the odd impressed look

‘I’d say any bloke who can’t sew is just a man-sook!’

Sullen-faced boy up the back said, ‘My Dad can’t sew!’

Oops! Found out his Dad was the head bikie gang so and so!

 

Ode to the old broad

When a woman grows old

And the skin doth fold

With wrinkles and lines of character,

When the urge to scold

In a manner so bold

And a temper that flares like an actor.

Possessed with gloom, pretty soon I’m thinking

I’m in, for a “kitchen sinking”

First my obvious genetic flaws,

And faults due, to said inlaws

Then, my fragile, human weaknesses

Plus all my misdeeds, that she witnesses.

 

She looks for perfection, compliance inspection

Fault-finding’s her constant, special detection

Kissing is spurned, with romance rejection

She’s allergic to any, type of affection

It’s just not fair, this getting old,

Regrets and memories all to hold

As the hair goes grey and you fart all day

And sometimes in, a very public way…

“They’ll think it’s you”, I bet she’ll say.

 

I watch her when she’s unaware

My heart melts, says she, “What’s with the stare?”

“Can if I like,” my standard reply

The power of love, the reason why.

She cooks nice meals

Her health advice heals

With a heart of gold

Good intentions to keep

When I’m constantly told:

Go the fuck to sleep!

No noise, not even a peep

Pretend I will, now counting sheep.

 

I let her think she’s got all the power

I wear the pants, when she’s in the shower

But at the end of the day

And come what may

She’s been my constant companion

With commitment; despite the odd sanction.

The woman I love

We go hand in glove

And for all that she does

As a mother just because

She develops not a cynical blinker,

But remains yet a youthful thinker.

 

So, as the old broad grows older

Beauty in the eye of beholder,

I think I’ll hold ‘er, she’s a keeper I thinks

And not just because of her tiddlywinx.

 

The final cut

Years ago, as memories go, a mate and I and his girlfriend

Decided to find, our fortunes mined, for sapphire, our days to spend

As a dirt-poor student, own welfare impudent, I’d ventured to sleep on the ground

When elderly residents, generously provident, gave veranda space unbound.

 

Lo the dawn, prospects forlorn, at the thought of a stockman’s breakfast

A spit, a piss, and naught to miss, with cursory glance-around repast

Hi ho! Hi ho! To work we go, with shovel, pick and sieve

We scoured, we toiled, our efforts foiled, as nature failed to give.

 

Return to “camp,” with hurricane lamp, our “neighbours” sprung a surprise

A dinner proffered, gratitude offered, their life story: we sipped their apprise

But their biggest lament, unemployment, his job, school bus driver deposed

When we asked why, his sad reply, the school teacher’s left, school’s closed.

 

Of teacher we inquired, of what conspired, to make her leave so early

With school year just started, the reason departed, was bush lore hurly burly

An eager city girl, arrived to a sudden whirl, of country dinners nightly

Each station homestead, filled her head, stories of dread, big spiders, snakes unsightly.

 

School’s first day, she made her way, to the toilet, first recess

With piercing scream, poor girl was seen, to run in state of undress

Across the road, to workers bowed, with shovel, tar, plate packer

“Help! Help!” they heard her yelp, “A snake has bitten my clacker!”

 

With earnest renown, they lay her down, her privates eagerly scanned

And sure enough, all red and rough, two puncture marks did stand

So calloused hand, at urgent command, with knife proceeded to cut

To cause to bleed, the poison to cede, from her delicate pale butt.

 

Then one thinking man, with incisive plan, to the toilet, he went to seek

The snake’s identity, venom’s propensity, medical aid’s critique

To his surprise, then able to surmise, the poor girl’s probable fate

Subconscious mind, snake stories defined, her horror to pre-date.

 

School closed for summer, no flushing comer, the toilet bowl dried up

Then entered girl, in one smooth twirl, close door, skirt up, undies down, back up

Then on the throne, realised groan, at snake bite’s instant pain

Not seen but felt, new nest it dwelt, a chook! defends its domain.

 

So obviously shamed, her butt inflamed, and seen by all and sundry

Her self esteem whacked, her bags all packed, her future seeming tawdry

Understandably upset, needs unmet, no comfort with locals’ pity

No one could blame, nor seek to shame, when she went back to the city.